Hello, Blog. It's been a while.
What can say? Life is happening and I'm holding on for dear life.
I'm mentally reliving every moment in China in chronological order as each day of our trip passes again. The drive to NOLA, the delays to Denver, the layover and flight to Seattle, meeting the Goffs, the flight to Beijing, meeting the Leggs and Davises, Tiananmen Square, freezing temperatures, the great wall, the Peking duck (it was by far the best thing I ate while we were there). All of this was pre-Sammy.
Today I went through Sam's files from the orphanage. I feel melancholy and a little pissy. It's not a culture that I will ever understand. I'm angry about every tear I didn't wipe, every moment that I missed, every hug and kiss that I didn't give. I'm mad that anyone ever called him too naughty or unhealthy for foster care. I'm mad that babies anywhere at anytime are raised like litters of animals. When I think back to people staring and pointing at us and actually coming up to him and pointing out his lips, I'm madder now than I was then.
But I'm struggling to understand my own culture and fit in. If I read one more post about Duck Dynasty, I'm going to scream. I don't even know what was said because I don't really care. Here is my take, I believe in the Father, the Son and Holy Ghost, I believe in the Bible, I believe that I am sinner, I believe that two people of the same sex can love each other just as deeply and sincerely as two people of the opposite sex. Outside of that, I figure God will sort us all out. Seriously, I'm all about some righteous indignation but instead having twitter and facebook wars about what a guy with a reality show said about the Bible in an interview, be the hands and feet of Jesus and show his love by example or just shut up on both sides.
Here is a picture of one of many moments that I missed. You can come back later for funnier posts. I do have some.
Amen sister. Amen!
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